Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Alone in Learning

You don't expect that the people you love in your life may not always be there, especially by choice. But it happens. 
They will shock you.
And you try to deal with it best you can. Even if it means serious workouts followed by eating dark chocolate while watching comedies from the 80's. And hugs from your friends. Many of those. Because sometimes the tears are going to fall even if you hate that you've been reduced to that, but the hugs make you feel less alone. We're only human.
So this brings me to the thought I have in my mind this week: being alone.

I think I've been waiting a while to find someone that would want to experience life with me. Someone that genuinely would enjoy going on my sometimes silly adventures.

But what if I can't find someone willing to do that with me?
I'm going to have to plan on doing these things alone.

I have a Bucket List with over 40 entries. I'm sure that list will grow to exceed 100. It gives me satisfaction to scratch off one more thing accomplished. 
I've decided to make a list of some of those things that I want to do this year. I can't wait for that impossible person to join me. So far, I am going to:
  •  skydive
  •  Finish Masters degree
  •  a trip to Alberta
  •  Go to Italy to study here (http://www.adg.it/) (may be far-fetched, but I'm going to try my best)
  •  Yoga outside at Sunset & at Sunrise
  •  lots & lots of camping and hiking
  •  purchase a DSLR

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Combined bucket
lists of dreaming

Sunshine & rainy days
hiding under blankets
Not fearing


Side to side
hands held

Together facing
the endless night
raging waters
calming tides
soothing winds

dusty roads
and truckstop breakfast
at 3am


Ashes to the sea